August 21

i start to feel a little bit tiredi feel a little bit traped in my life.why am i here and not to a nice beach somewhere?suddently i feel like i have to respond to all this spirit matterswe( sabine and i )will make a t shirt that wil say:"i hope there is nothing after death" or something like thisat the beging i was justifiing all this spiritual abstract, most of the times, feelings/ but lately i feel really angry.some people use emocional tricks (unconsiusly maybe) for explaning their experiencesi dont need to indentifie myself so as to feel compasion towrwads a human "tragedy" like death or pain or..misunderstanding!suddendly i feel like i have to articulate a big truth and this scares me because i dont beleive in big statments..i dont know if what i write can be understood,writing or expressing ourselfes needs a lot of talent and strangle shadows in a wall of a religious monument,spiritual darkness,a fight for a subjective point of viewbla bla bla blim blom